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Sunday, January 3, 2016

HONESTY



Hi. I hope you haven't forgotten about me. I want to talk about something that I've never talked about here on the blog. I was always trying to find some excuses why I don't write posts here on the blog, and they were mainly about: how I don't have perfect camera, how I don't have time, how I don't have money for the clothes every month, how I don't have backgrounds and "life" like other bloggers and I was always, but always scared you wouldn't like my posts.

I've come to realization that first I do not have to have a blog like other bloggers because my life is unique with its own ups and downs, struggles, joys. I don't need to have new clothes every month to suggest you what you can wear. And there is always time to be found if you want something enough.

I cannot honestly believe myself that I've let this blog not be updated for a year. This past year has been a real struggle for me, in the meaning of every letter of the word struggle. I don't want to brag about it too much, just wanted to say I've been let down from too many persons that year. But also, some exciting things have happened, things like having a nice birthday gathering in the cabin from the picture in February. 

In April I contacted a job agent in Germany that I met in 2014 to work over the summer in Germany and also arranged for my 2 college friends to come with me. In May I worked my ass off at my student job in Croatia so I could collect some money to actually go and work for summer. That month was really full of surprises for me: I was working 8-10 or 14 hours a day, going to college, passing all my finals, going out on festival, student day festival and I did not get sick! And trust me, my immune  system is terrible and I always get sick.

On July 2nd starts all the excitement called: Germany. We drove 12 hours with the bus to come to Stuttgart. We rented a hostel, that was enormously expensive and terrible. We saw our agent and started working on 6th. We worked for the chocolate factory. I remember us being so confused and so little that first day. The second week of work we met 4 Romanian students who were the only ones speaking english. And our adventure was about to begin. I want to dedicate a special post about this period some other time.

We came back only 10 days before our last year at college begin and nothing much exciting has been happening, except for the day when I made my first tattoo which I will post picture of after this text. The second exciting thing was when I bought the airplane ticket to - Romania! Yes, I went to visit my new found summer friends to their lovely country and I had a blast! Also, this was my first time flying with an airplane!

I am strongly motivated for this year as I have really big plans I still don't want to talk a lot about, but you will see. I want to show you and tell you my experience from Germany and visiting Romania. I want to keep this blog alive as I believe I have strong words to communicate with you. Please, bare with me, I am going to do my best, I promise. Thank you.